Valerie held more secrets inside than she did memories of a normal life. It didn’t bother her, it was simply a fact. She could count on one hand the people she loved. The people that touched her life and remained a part of her. The intent hadn’t been to push Brian away. It was the blonde’s way of trying to let him into her life fully. That could never happen if he didn’t know everything about what she was. Any kind of love they could have would crumble if the relationship had been formed from deceit, no matter how innocent, or how much she wanted to protect him from the dark side of her life. Shield him so he wouldn’t become tainted by it the way she was. Numb perhaps to the horror that she’d felt all those years ago. Valerie was just wired that way.
So she stood, and she listened, albeit mildly confused at first but by the end she’d got the gist of it. The blonde took in a deep slow breath through her nose and threw her head back to exhale up at the stars. They twinkled back, bright ever changing colours thanks to the chemicals that flowed through her system. Why did it have to fall on her, down the line, about pointing at the door? No pressure. She thought, somewhat sarcastically, but not in a mean way. Obviously it was meant to come across as something sweet, because there was stating she was the right girl for him.
“I wasn’t listing reasons to make you leave.” Valerie said softly, directing her gaze back to him. “If we’re really going to give our relationship a shot you needed to know who you were getting involved with. Truly know, because anything less would be like a lie, and I don’t want that. I want to be able to tell you my day without cutting chunks out, or show up tussled and know you’re not worrying that I’ve been off with someone else when really I’ve just been patrolling. I don’t want to have to hide parts of me from you. It wouldn’t feel right.”
Valerie tilted her head, looked off to the side then shrugged haphazardly. “While I’m being honest I want to teach you proper self defense and knowledge of what’s out there because… It’s important.”
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on 2013-11-02 08:42 pm (UTC)So she stood, and she listened, albeit mildly confused at first but by the end she’d got the gist of it. The blonde took in a deep slow breath through her nose and threw her head back to exhale up at the stars. They twinkled back, bright ever changing colours thanks to the chemicals that flowed through her system. Why did it have to fall on her, down the line, about pointing at the door? No pressure. She thought, somewhat sarcastically, but not in a mean way. Obviously it was meant to come across as something sweet, because there was stating she was the right girl for him.
“I wasn’t listing reasons to make you leave.” Valerie said softly, directing her gaze back to him. “If we’re really going to give our relationship a shot you needed to know who you were getting involved with. Truly know, because anything less would be like a lie, and I don’t want that. I want to be able to tell you my day without cutting chunks out, or show up tussled and know you’re not worrying that I’ve been off with someone else when really I’ve just been patrolling. I don’t want to have to hide parts of me from you. It wouldn’t feel right.”
Valerie tilted her head, looked off to the side then shrugged haphazardly. “While I’m being honest I want to teach you proper self defense and knowledge of what’s out there because… It’s important.”