Diary of an Emotional Idiot
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birthright_rpgI have no filter.
No, check that, I have less than no filter, and it shows. On the streets, it's easy to be crude, if only because you have to get your point across in a hurry, but when you're around normies you have to censor yourself or you come off like an ass. I never learned how to do that. My parents were too busy drinking and screwing around to tell me to mind my manners when I was a kid, and after I ran away for the last time they never even bothered to look for me. I guess they were fed up.
Dane tried, in his own way, to teach me better ways to behave, but vampires don't really care about niceties. Neither do whores. Combine the two and you end up with an amoral, bloodsucking loudmouth who takes off her clothes for money. What am I supposed to do, meet the sun because of it?
I didn't mean to embarrass Holly. She was cute, and I couldn't help looking. And Daniel's still a baby vamp and might not know that I can be manipulative. I'm not...proud's the wrong word. But I'm not uncomfortable with it either, at least not often. At least if she tells on me ll be able to honestly say I never touched her. Thoughts aren't stake-worthy, or they shouldn't be.
I'll clean up my act if I see her again. It's not worth arguing about. Not with her, and not with Daniel. I can behave, I just don't have to very often. I just have to mind my manners, especially while I'm sleeping on a borrowed couch.
I really hate common sense sometimes.
No, check that, I have less than no filter, and it shows. On the streets, it's easy to be crude, if only because you have to get your point across in a hurry, but when you're around normies you have to censor yourself or you come off like an ass. I never learned how to do that. My parents were too busy drinking and screwing around to tell me to mind my manners when I was a kid, and after I ran away for the last time they never even bothered to look for me. I guess they were fed up.
Dane tried, in his own way, to teach me better ways to behave, but vampires don't really care about niceties. Neither do whores. Combine the two and you end up with an amoral, bloodsucking loudmouth who takes off her clothes for money. What am I supposed to do, meet the sun because of it?
I didn't mean to embarrass Holly. She was cute, and I couldn't help looking. And Daniel's still a baby vamp and might not know that I can be manipulative. I'm not...proud's the wrong word. But I'm not uncomfortable with it either, at least not often. At least if she tells on me ll be able to honestly say I never touched her. Thoughts aren't stake-worthy, or they shouldn't be.
I'll clean up my act if I see her again. It's not worth arguing about. Not with her, and not with Daniel. I can behave, I just don't have to very often. I just have to mind my manners, especially while I'm sleeping on a borrowed couch.
I really hate common sense sometimes.